Waiting

Waiting for tests to be scheduled
Waiting for for the doctor
Waiting for results
Waiting for prescriptions to be filled
Waiting for websites to load, looking for answers
Waiting for the lab to draw blood
Waiting for more tests
Waiting for coordinators to get back to you with answers
Waiting for listing
Waiting for THE call
Waiting for the team to arrive with the organs
Waiting for surgery to start
Waiting for news that he's made it through surgery
Waiting for tubes to come out and pain meds to kick in
Waiting for the doctors to make their rounds
Waiting for him to wake up for a bit
Waiting for a smile, a flicker of "my Ben" to pass over his face
Waiting for the next minutes, the next hours to pass, holding my breath
Waiting for a time where I feel he's coming back
Waiting for healing
Waiting for fewer meds, days without seeing him in pain
Waiting for the hospital release
Waiting for clinic days
Waiting for blood work and vitals
Waiting for surgeons
Waiting for what comes next
Waiting to start life again

It's been eight months since Ben started the testing process for PSC. We've waited so many hours, for so many things. It's nice to be on this side of things. To start feeling like there will be less waiting in the coming months. It's time for the three of us to start doing for a while. I suppose this is the point where we officially announce that we are moving on with amazing, wonderful life. That we're jumping back in with energy and smiles. We've got plans. Trips to take, memories to make, traditions to start. We've all been changed by the course of this journey, so here we go, we're more than ready :)